Lame Excuses....

I have a confession to make...


I did not go see/play with my horses today...



Why?

I’m not totally sure. On one hand, it might have been a LBI issue... I didn’t have the motivation or reason to go. After all, it was chilly and windy...

Or it might have been a RBI problem, I was too fearful, too uncertain about what I might do wrong if I tried playing with them.

Whichever problem it was, it kept me inside and even if I didn’t mess up, I sure did not make any progress either...

If it was the LBI me showing up, then I need to work on my motivation. What were my excuses? The wind? The cold? The mud? Inside chores? School? Looking at those excuses now makes me ashamed, makes me want to crawl into my RBI shell again. I wonder... if I tried, could I come up with better arguments to try and refute my sad excuse for excuses...?

The wind -> really.... in the afternoon, it wasn’t that strong, I could easily have played in that! :P

The cold -> where is my jacket?

The mud -> surely it can’t be worse than yesterday’s muck and I played in that! :P

Inside chores -> yeah, which could have been done this evening instead of writing this miserable excuse for a blog post...

School -> it was done by one-o-clock... what kind of excuse is that??

Goodness, that makes me look bad! Maybe I should go on to the RBI what-ifs...

If my problem as RBIedness (lol... what a word :P) then I highly doubt it was too bad, for I was LB most of the day. Usually my fear of messing up isn't too great, unless the last session I had ended pretty badly (which... it wasn’t all that great, but not terrible either)...



Since I often deal with both the LBI excuses AND the RBI fear, I should see if I can find some ways of overcoming them for next time... (tomorrow).

Let’s start with the RB side...
1) Make a list of all the things that could possibly go wrong... now make a list of all the things that could go right instead!

2) Play approach and retreat in my head.... over and over until I’m just begging myself to actually go outside...

3) Put on my horsey jacket and just breathe in horses... eat horse cookies, hug ropes, etc... until I’m just longing to touch the real thing.

4) Go feed the horses and go from there.

5) Sit in the pasture and read a book... Lady will eventually push me to get up and feed or play with her, if the cold doesn’t get to me first. >:P



And for the LB side...


1) Walk out to the pasture slowly... reward the slightest try with chocolate and rest...


2) Get Lady and DON’T play.


3) Read this sad and miserable post again.


4) Make a list of horsemanship goals... motivate myself.


5) Choose a very simple task and focus on that alone...



Hmm... maybe right now I should take the motivation I have and go work on my book... those are my thoughts for one evening. :)




~Kit Marie 2012~


P.S.  Here are a few OLD pictures... :)  The first one is from about a month or so after I got Lady.  The other two are from almost 4 years ago, jumping :)